No regrets, just love

So it's true, people get annoyed to you everyday. No matter how hard we try to do good and to bring up happiness. People can never get enough of you. Trust me. So people make mistakes everyday, what do you expect kan? Same goes to me. People treated me badly all the time. Sometimes it is just how I feel or it is obviously true. For me, to feel mad about one thing is too obnoxious. It is okay to be mad. To talk bad sometimes, but to have the feeling of madness is driving me crazy. It is better if I could just get over it and move on. Memang la sakit. To think that people are making you sick inside and out. Tapi that's life. Ada orang tu kata, 'Life is not fair'. Yelah cakap memang senang. Wait till you feel the unfairness of life. What ever it is, to forgive is not easy. I am still trying my best. Apatah lagi bila orang tu dah destroyed almost everything I gained. The good things. *sigh* I couldn't imagine how some people have the guts to destroy other's life on so many ways. As if, the world revolves around them. They can do whatever they want, to whoever they want. Kalau dia nak, means dia nak. Kalau dia rasa dia suka, means dia kena dapat benda tu. No matter if it is going to hurt others. It is not fair kan? Yeah, life's not fair. Tapi entahla, for someone like me yang selalu fikir perasaan orang, how can people can never look twice on whether they hurt my feelings ke tak? Tak boleh ke, you just feel me sikit? Like look into my heart and feel if I ever get hurt with your doings? You've destroyed my life. In a split second. Whatever I built for the past few years, kau dah spiled kan everything. Entahlaa, I don't know how to express this. 
The worse part is that, dah la kau dah buat aku suffer for months, kau buat aku jadi orang yang sangat paranoid, kau tak mintak maaf pun! In fact you blame me and the other person. Kau langsung takda rasa bersalah. You don't even think to say sorry in the first place. Fine la you were born is such cozy family. Apa kau nak kau dapat. Tak kisah la apa cara pun. You'll get it, tapi come on. REAL life isn't about you anymore. Have some courtesy to understand people jugak. You knew in the first place it was your fault. But you never did say sorry to me. Not even one attempt. You know what, if you do hurt some other girls out there, I bet kau dah teruk kena tarik rambut dah. Seriously. 
Jangan la rasa diri tu on top of the world sangat. Bila-bila pun kalau Allah nak duga, dia duga jugak. Kalau sekarang kau duk sibuk amik orang lain punya, nanti tunggu la orang lain ambik pulak hak kau. No offense. I don't know if I've forgiven you. I'm not sure. Sebab orang sombong macam kau ni memualkan. zzz. 
Avoiding you is the best decision so far. Mana tau satu hari aku ketuk pintu kau and claim for explanation kan? Good luck in your life. You really think blocking me would do you any favor? Haha. You make me laugh my butt out. 
Takpeplah, orang tak nak mintak maaf, kita diam je la kan. Dosa dia dengan manusia, tetap dosa. InsyaAllah I'll forgive you eventually. 


xx